the days have started to blur together. groundhog day of falling asleep at 6 or 7 in the morning and waking again at lunchtime. the last few months have been passed playing online scrabble and pretending to look for a car on ebay. how can you pretend to look for a car? window shopping, but with no real intention of buying...or maybe unable to make the rudimentary decision to buy one...possibly not believing any longer that i'll be able to summon up the energy or interest to get in a car and go anywhere if i do get one.
there is, of course, always the excuse that the money could be put towards the 'escape' fund. this, however, also becomes increasingly fantastic as time slopes by, as the reality of moving to a different town or city let alone another country seems less and less likely. these days the prospect of inclement weather and the onset of winter are what i most look forward to, as unavoidable trips outside can be made with the lowest likelyhood of having to stop and talk to anyone.